A Random Stranger!!

This incident happened to me some 5 years ago but its still very much fresh in my memory bank.  It may not be a biggie but to me it is .

It happened when we were coming back from our France trip. We were waiting for our connecting flight. I was staring outside the glass doors of waiting lounge. People were running /walking towards their destinations.

I saw this one guy, and I dont know may be while I was thinking something totally different my eyes were kind of fixated on him. I know I wasnt staring him but my eyes were somehow following his every move.

I guess he saw me looking at him and I am sure he would have thought that I was staring him (which I was but not consciously), so he waved at me. Now I don’t remember what I was thinking. I was so much engrossed in the thought process that though I was looking at him but I dint notice his wave.

Now you must be wondering how do I know he was waving if I dint notice..  that’s because though I dint notice but subconsciously my mind acknowledged that. Anyways, he waved again and this time I saw he was smiling. He was standing on one of those walking escalators at airports. As soon as I came back to my senses I automatically waved back ( hesitantly).

He was about to pass me any moment now and just before that, he did these gestures…………

His first gesture was asking me to smile ( with his thumb and middle finger at both sides of his lips )….

His second gesture: he kissed his first 2 fingers …

His third gesture was after kissing his fingers he waved a Peace sign at me..

Now I was not only waving back but I was smiling too.

All the scenario took may be some 30-45 seconds but to me it was very elaborated incident. That is why the memory is so much fresh in my mind. Though I don’t remember how he looked like, but his smile and his gestures will always remain imprinted in my thoughts and heart.

Since that moment till date I never met / seen anyone doing same gestures. But one thing which I adopted was whenever I see anyone with a very serious expression on their face whether they are walking,  driving .. sitting or whatever.. I gesture em to smile ( if the moment and circumstances allow)

Mostly people smile back but once a blue moon they dont but I feel good that atleast I tried.

I am thankful to that  RANDOM STRANGER who showed me how to do A RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS.

Cogitation# 3

“Some dreams are better unsaid cos they are way precious to be shared and they will lose their charm and mystery attached to them!!!!!”

Cogitation# 2

“There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.”

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Cogitation # 1

As a result of coming face to face with so many awesome & some less awesome moments… ups & downs… bad & good human beings …. I thought to start a new series on my blog:

“COGITATION”:- which basically means: A carefully considered thought about something

Cogitation#1

“I could stay lost in this moment forever, where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.”

I have learnt… or have I???

In this life time we get to meet so many people. Some stay with us for throughout our existence and some fade away as the time passes.

But lately I was wondering if certain people come in our life to just brighten this single element of a dark entity engulfing us for a long time. But what will you do if you come across one who takes you out of this pitch darkness…  takes you out of it… shows you the bright light out there… will take your hand and rather than taking you towards the brightness, leaves you at a more blacked out spot. How do you come out of that? Even if you drag yourself out of it somehow, then how will you ever forget what happened? Can time delete the whole sole existence of that monster? 10- 20 years down memory lane will you ever have that clean slate of mind?

Forget that…  but since we are very humane and we think that whatever we are doing is the best and in that we are not harming anyone, then how can people end up being cruel and other being hurt?? May be their inner feelings are dead and frankly I don’t give a damn about them, they don’t deserve any happiness on account of someone’s sadness. They should be served with the same soup they served others. These people actually disgust me… Just wondering how do people live with themselves when they happen to hurt another human being to such an extreme?

How come anyone who is as sweet as sugar suddenly transforms into someone so bitter? How can anyone be that selfish?

What have I learnt from all of this? This just strengthens my belief in Karma…  and… In case nothing of this sort happens…  then?

Well then… then ADIOS… They don’t deserve to be anywhere in your life… not your thoughts…  not your mind/ heart…  not in your prayers…  not in your hate even.

Stargazing .. not literally!!!

Feelings and thoughts when go hand in hand takes us to faraway places. Specially if they are of a certain someone special, or some special place…  or may be a moment that takes you down the memory lane and the back waters from the sea of emotions creates waves.

Some thoughts, some dreams are exceptional. Mostly having a dream means doing efforts to achieve it by hook and crook, these are not just dreams these are the ambitions.

But have you ever had a dream that you simply want to see it again and again. A dream that gives you Goosebumps, a dream that you see repeatedly with an open eye… Sometimes simply dreaming the dream is so mesmerizing that you don’t ever want to share it with anyone, yet you want to see it…  feel it…  again and again. A dream that gives the sense of satisfaction…  contentment in life. A dream which makes you smiles every time you indulge in its reminiscence.

Everyone has that special dream which is very close to one’s heart.  If you have that dream then basking in its aura is one of most beautiful experience you will ever have. It is like one of your own well kept lil secret. Aww a secret which is engulfed within the confinements of mystery, love, passion, satisfaction, purity and above all untouched in its purest form.

I am lucky to have one such dream, which makes me smile every time I think about it.  See me smiling while typing this

An evening to remember: when i cried!

Disclaimer: Read @ your own “risk” (read “patience“)

I dint want to write about it on the first thought but then I couldn’t myself. Alright so it happened on this last Friday i: e 5th of September. No there wasn’t something wrong with me or people around me,  actually it was wonderful book which I was reading.

For the very first time I cried through the last 50-60 pages of a book continuously (though frankly telling you I do cry if I am reading a silly romantic novel or watching a touching movie). Though the thing is whenever I cried while reading a novel it was like couple of tears here and there, but this book made me cry like a little baby.

The book was “A walk to remember” by “Nicholas Sparks”. I had seen the movie and cried but the real words in the book were the ones that literally broke me up inside out. I started reading the novel around 2:30 in noon and till 6o’clock I was fine until I reached towards the end of the book. Last 50 of the 250 pages of the book were the tricky ones. I dint even realize that my tears were running down not only my cheeks but my neck. There was a time when I had to take my eyes off the pages in order to let myself go, and GOD I cried and cried.

Phew after shedding tears for some 10 minutes I came back to the book and starting reading it with the continuous sobs. I completed the book by 7ish… Got up to wash my face, get a glass of water & to throw the crumbled and tear soaked tissues in the bin. Washed my face, had a glass of water, switched off the light of the bed side lamp and tried to relax my weepy eyes.

It was then I realized couple of things: First was though I had already seen the movie which was made on this novel but the real words of the book had the worst & best affect on me. I had always thought that to feel the pain and emotion of someone you have to see them, watch them only then you may get to feel the fraction of what they are going through. But after reading this fiction I guess I have to say even if the characters were fictional, but the feelings portrayed were so real that simple straight sentences and the words made me so sad. I ended up feeling the pain of the 2 primary characters of the book.

Second thing that I realized was that my current story “An Angel’s Kiss” (which btw will be on blog soon) is so much like this book. Though with twists and turns it’s almost on the similar outline as that of “A walk to remember”. Then I ended up thinking if I will ever be that much good that my stories or other write-ups will make someone actually feel the exact feelings of the characters portrayed.

I loved the book & will recommend it to everyone. If you want to either read the book or watch the movie here is a little briefing about it:

“Jamie Sullivan, the Bible-toting minister’s daughter, with her drab brown sweaters, spinster hairstyle and sincere, beatific advice, is the obvious target of high school ridicule. Despite conspiring in Jamie’s derision, class president Landon, desperate for a date for the homecoming dance, finds himself asking Jamie. Afterwards, Jamie asks him to participate with her in the metaphor-laden school Christmas play (Jamie plays the angel). Landon endures the taunting of his friends and forms an uneasy friendship with Jamie, which is carefully supervised by her father. The teens visit needy orphans, give Oscar-worthy performances in the school play and share dreams watching the sunset. Landon realizes he’s in love with Jamie, but, of course, she is hiding a devastating secret that could wring her from Landon’s arms forever. Now tortured by his knowledge of what will be her terrible fate, he must make the ultimate decision that catapults him into adulthood.”

Aphorism#2

How come in USA every second girl is seen with COACH bags on their shoulders, where did all other barands disappear? Why are all the  “C” bags and “LV” bags are so dull in color? Hmm..  I guess i will never buy one. Come on guys throw in some colors and get a new set of target market.

Hospital: A hate and love scenario

 

Another trip to hospital was freaking Eva out. She was accompanying her uncle to the hospital as he was having some chest pains. He was her only family and the thought of losing him was downright atrocious. Earlier she never used to be this much worried about hospitals but since that dreadful night some four years back  she literally gets sick to her stomach on even if someone simply mention hospital.

That was one awful night. It was pitch dark, drizzling and the roads were slippery, though it was only 8o’clock in night but roads were already lifeless. Eva was trying to keep her eyes on road and was sipping coffee. Out of nowhere a big SUV came and hit her car head-on. Eva’s car got badly banged up and so was her head. Seatbelt saved her life but not the frequent hospitals visits that she had to make for almost 3 years for checkups. She had to stay in hospital for almost a month for surgery and observations. During those days she ended up hating that small room, those bright white walls and glaring lights and all that weird equipment around her.

She detested the smell, the weird smell of lemon and ammonia that was engulfing the waiting room. She was literally feeling dizzy simply by thinking about those days and frequent visit to hospitals. She was trying to control her emotions. She was thinking that once her Uncle comes out after his checkup, she will out of there in no time. She was tried to read the magazine which she bought with her.

A nurse came out and asked her to go to the Doctor’s cabin.

Doctor stood up and asked her to take a seat. She was actually on the edge of getting a heart attack herself when she heard that doctor wanted to meet her and was worried if her uncle is alright.

Doctor introduced himself: Hello I am Dr. Trapp. I just examined Mr. Krimper, don’t worry he is fine but we may keep him in hospital for a night or two for observation. He kept on discussing her Uncle’s well being. He observed that she was little anxious.  Are you ok?

Eva tried to control her impatience and said: Yea I am fine… just that hospitals scare me a little. Otherwise I am fine. Thanks for asking.

Dr Trapp offered her a glass of water, which literally slipped down from her hands and spilled everywhere. Eva was unable to hold onto her fears and tears anymore and started crying.

That’s alright don’t worry, tell me why are you crying, you need not to cry your uncle is perfectly fine.

Eva was unable to control any feeling or emotion and she was getting hysterical now. Through her tears he told everything to doctor. She was angry with her life, her hospital visits, and her medical expenses. She was angry, very angry with every aspect of her life and now she was scared that she may end up losing her only family. She was shattered from inside out and ended up showing her hatred towards hospitals.

Dr. Trapp tried to comfort her and said: “Eva I have been a doctor since last 20 years now and I have seen patients who had some of the worst and best days in their term in hospitals. But whenever someone gets discharged from hospital I personally feel an emotion of contentment. I feel that if someone survives the worst then less then worst days are nothing but a momentarily lapse in life’s pace.”

“You should not be depressed, you are angry that you had that accident but see the positive side you were out of the hospital in a month , you must feel lucky to be out there and living in this beautiful world. Regarding medical expenses and bills don’t worry you will win over those hurdles also. You have your Uncle with you who by the way is hale n hearty and will be by your side in no time. There are people who fight some of the worst days & diseases by themselves and alone.”

“Look at the bright side of life. You have your whole life ahead of you and please don’t lose your strength in these slightly dark times. Hospitals, doctors and nurses are here just to serve you and make you feel better but nothing can win over a disease fast enough then a positive attitude towards life in general.”

“Hating someone or something is easy, try loving that same thing and see how content you will be with your life.”

Eva listened to each and every single beautifully braided word of Dr. Trapp. She felt as if he induced a new life in her dark life. She wiped her tears & made up her mind to give her life another chance and gather all of her courage to fight back tough times.”