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Monsoon: too late or too soon?

It was drizzling since morning but by the time she was done with her lunch it started to rain heavily. She went outside to feel the air and light breeze. The moment she stepped out on the rain-soaked patio, she knew she will have a tough day. Monsoon always had that effect on her. There was a time when she simply used to get mesmerized by the pleasant weather, pitter patter of rain drops and the sweet heart breaking fragrance of the damp soil. Now she feels sad, she misses the love of her life and regrets that why dint she tell him about her feelings and why dint she ask his name?

This was the same hotel, same city where she met him 2 years back. They met at the Hotel disc. She was trying to order a Dirty Martini but bartender was way too busy to even give her a glance and the blaring music made it more arduous. Out of nowhere from crowd, he jumped in and literally ordered for her and gave the bar tender 20 bucks for a 10 dollar drink. She thanked him and they started chatting, she actually liked him. Somehow she was not feeling any inhibitions from him and the result was she was sharing almost every tiny little detail of her life, her thoughts, her family and friends .

It was 3 in night when they had to leave the place. Both of them were in no mood to go their respective rooms. They were drunk, after the Martini sessions and tequila shots. Booze was doing all the thinking & talking for them. Before they knew they were sneaking out on the stairway and in no time they were at the rooftop of the hotel. Rooftop had a garden and a beautifully lit gazebo which was reserved for special occasions. It was raining and it began to gain momentum and smacked them with all its might, piercing them through and through, from head to toe (they preferred rain over brightly lit gazebo)…………

He saw her by the bar trying to place an order. That beautiful gorgeous girl, 2 years ago, who caught her attention not because of the beauty she endured but the charisma that engulfed her. Dressed in plain black cowl neck dress with her hairs tied up in a neat ponytail and the only jewelry she was wearing was a red ruby ring in her right hand. Confidently standing in her high red and bronze heels and clutching her tiny bag in one hand she was trying to get a drink. She was oblivious to his gaze, but he was very much aware of her presence and the fragrance of her perfume was simply intoxicating.

Before he knew he was buying her the drink. She turned towards him and thanked him. He knew he was drawn to her. She was intelligent and smart. He was getting more and more attracted to her. A feeling of inexplicable longing came over him as a thrill ran down his spine. Talking to her was so easy, he was conveying whatever was in his heart that too without any hesitations. They had their drinks and then couple of shots. He dint even realize the time till he heard the DJ announcing that the bar is closed and everyone needs to leave. He dint want the night to end.  He was drunk, she was drunk but he was intoxicated by her beauty.

They ended up at the rooftop garden of the Hotel. He dint know how the door to the garden got unlocked, may be his luck was on his side. It was a rainy night. Though the stars were concealed by the pitch darkness, but he could easily see the twinkle in her eyes. Both of them were suddenly soundless, only thing they could hear was: whatever their hearts were saying. Both of them knew the night will be one of the most unforgettable nights of their lives and the moments will be cherished throughout their existence.

Since that morning 2 years back when they parted their ways he regretted not conveying his feelings to her. He was never able to forget her as she became a part of his heart, the girl with whom he shared the most beautiful moments of his life, the girl about whom he knew everything except for her name and contact. He tried to forget her but more he was trying to forget, more she was hovering over his thoughts and heart.

Finally he gave in to his feelings and decided to visit the same hotel on the same date when they met for the first and last time. It was his last night and tomorrow he will be leaving. He was unable to bear her absence from his life. To drown his sorrows he went down to the bar and ordered a drink. Just when he was about to pay a hand came from behind and offered 20 dollars for that 10 dollar drink.

There was no need to turn back and look who was buying him a drink, this was the fragrance he can never forget and the ruby ring which caught his attention.

He knew this is the beginning of a very beautiful life.


(re blogged)

A teaser (reblogged)

I am working on some short stories and a novel for quite sometime now. Hopefully one day I will get to say that I am a published writer (officially). I posted this teaser a year ago and in the amidst of all  the other things, I totally forgot about this story. After I read it again today, a sudden urge to complete this story engulfed me (keeping my fingers crossed). So here is the text from the original post:

“He is the one. I knew it the moment I set my eyes on him. His charm was trying to sweep me off my feet and his aura was engulfing my heart gradually. With steady pace and a gorgeous smile on his face he was coming towards the window where I was sitting. For a moment my heart stopped, the cafe swirled and the fork fell from my hand.  We were separated by a huge thick glass window but I could still feel his warmth. With his each and every step towards the cafe,  my soul  ached and my fingers tingled. They wanted to touch him and feel his strong jaw bones. His dark hairs were swaying under the light breeze and his smile was sending shivers down my spine. I was seeing him after a year,  his absence made me realize what my heart had been trying to tell me all along.

He was my friend,  I knew him well but today he was a stranger. A stranger not because I was seeing him after such a long time but because the separation of such a long time made me realize that there is lot  to be discovered and shared with him. He became my world,  I was craving for his charming smile and those three words which I was dying to hear. How will he say it, will he smile while expressing his love,  will he kiss me, will he……….. “

Surprisingly after reading my original post, I realized that my mind on that day was blank and  couple of days ago as well it was blank. One thing that I love when my “MIND IS BLANK” is I always end up writing something amazing and something that I absolutely love in that blank state. Above mentioned lines are so close to my heart as well as my post titled “No Words Today” .

So looks like, my blank mind works too and I should trust it.


Jan 14th: Pick one..

Today I was wondering if at any point in my life I have to pick one out of two options then which one will I choose.

Option 1:  Choosing something that makes others happy and I may or may not be or

Option 2:  Choosing something that makes me happy and others may or may not be.

I guess we all get to face something like this once (if not more) in our life time.  If I know myself then I will always pick option 1, not because I have to but because I can never stay happy if others around me are not.  Now it may sound little self- aggrandizing but that is the truth.

Whatever I have heard from my friends and family and whatever I know about myself the truth is giving something to someone comes naturally to me,  but frankly telling you I just can not share my movie popcorn :-). Sorry no giving in that, if you will make faces while sitting next to me I will knowingly ignore you. 🙂

But when it comes to bigger matters then I automatically pick option 1,  in fact that’s what I have always done and that will remain my default choice forever. I may regret my choice once a while but seeing others satisfied I will console myself and move on. Now I am not suggesting anyone anything and its not that, that I love to suffer or something but this option is an automatic choice for me.

You may pick option 2 and I totally get that,  after all we all live for once and staying happy through out our existence is our foremost priority. That’s the only reason we want to earn more money,  be successful professionally and personally,  loves to do charity, have hobbies etc.

Anyways, I was wondering about it and that is why I ended up writing about it. So whatever option you pick, pick one that will  make you happy  at the end of the day.

I find happiness when I see others smiling because of me  🙂 !

Jan 11th: My quirkiness

I have always loved writing. I never bothered if it made any sense or not but simply loved pouring my thoughts down on a piece of paper. Well these days its not a piece of paper but a blog.

According to my this year’s resolution I will write a blog everyday but my other resolution is that by the end of the day I need to jot down everything down in my journal as well.  Every time  I start writing journal I feel like as if I have again found the long lost love of my life

Nothing can replace writing with a pen on a piece of paper. Typing on laptop lacks the feeling of touch and artistry. When I am typing I am only thinking about recording whatever is in my thoughts at that particular moment. It definitely lacks that feeling and emotion which I get when I actually hold a pen in my fingers & write something down.

Before I start writing, the first thing that I need is a decent pen with black ink.  Throughout my student life,  since the day we as kids got permission from our school teachers to use pen to write in the notebook, my favorite was black ink. I have always felt that black ink has an elegance and gracefulness. Someday soon I will buy a Mont Blanc pen, nothing beats Mont Blanc’s writing instruments. They are the best. 🙂

Besides black ink I need a gorgeous journal which has thick pages. If a page is thin, ink will bleed out and I can’t tolerate that.  I just cant write in between lines therefore another journal necessity is it shouldn’t be lined and there should be no margins.

Once I have both:  a plain paper and a black ink,  I automatically end up writing something down. While I am writing the main thing going on in my mind is to keep the flow of writing and handwriting.  After writing some 10 pages I always go back and flip through them to see how they look. If they were neat enough,  if there was a consistency and if they look beautiful. That’s that.

Strange quirkiness right 🙂 ?

Plain white paper and black ink is all I need.

Jan 5th Second blog of the year!

I am glad that I was able to go with my resolutions for the second day as well. It is better to take one day at a time.

Yesterday having 7 glasses of water was kind of torture. lols  🙂 Though I feel it was a good start but requires improvements.

Today was fine. I only had 4 glasses of water, keeping my fingers crossed that before hitting bed tonight I will be able to had atleast 3 more.  Oh the best part was when I played couple of memory games I got to know that memory is better than an average person. Haha now I don’t know how much of this is true, but I feel superb.

Finally got a chance to set up my Wii. Oh and what an amazing experience it was. I am not a video game buff but I simply love to play video games.  My Xbox was fun but I am sure i will be addicted to Wii. Ah cant wait for tomorrow when I will start with Wii Fit. Had so much fun experimenting with Mii Avatars. They were hilarious. Most hilarious part was when I actually tripped off the Wii fit’s board while I was doing a balancing act ..  lols

I still have to write details in my journal. 🙂 Aha no escaping .

I am so glad that I have some resolutions this year, probably they will make up for 2008 as well.  Oh and I did learn a new word today : Myrmidons” : which means “A Royal Follower”

Happy I was , when I was playing Super Mario but optimistic… hmmm ????

That is it for today.

Jan 4th is my Jan 1st

Happy New Year to all!

By now many of you must have started working towards your resolutions. So all the best and stay motivated.

Last year was kind of no resolution year for me and to say it out loud I guess I pretty much regretted that. 😦

In 2007 I made ONE and only easiest yet a difficult resolution: It was to introduce lots of fruits in my diet and I still feel very happy that it did change my lifestyle. Even if I am not gorging on fruits all day long I do eat them, which was not a very presentable case earlier.

Alright now coming to 2008, I guess I thought to live in present and not worry about future and frankly at the end of year I did regret it. I guess living in present is good when you have nothing to plan for future or you are too much laid back for planning . Well 2008 is a history now so no point of cribbing about that. Moving on.

Before this year began I watched “Julie and Julia”. Oh and I loved that movie and it gave me the coolest idea for my resolution. Not that, that I will cook some 540 dishes in 365 and then blog about it but I will blog everyday. Even if my blog post has just couple of sentences, my resolution is to blog everyday.

Being a non planner it may be a lil far-fetched for me so I will try to take it one day at a time.  But I am so happy that at least I have a resolution this year.

Well frankly besides blogging everyday I made few other resolutions as well: hehe

– Drinking 7-8 glasses of water everyday

– Learning one new word and using it in conversation.

– Solve a brain teaser or puzzle everyday.

– Work on my novel everyday (in process)

– Be more optimistic and happy (though I am a very happy person but improvement is always a good thing) 🙂

– Wii Fit everyday.

Last but not least, most famous of all resolutions to hit gym at least for 5 hours a week🙂

So rather than making one unattainable resolution I thought to make tiny achievable resolutions and work on them. Even if I’ll miss one I’ll have others to keep me busy throughout 2010. In order to keep it follow em all I bought this journal from Barnes and Nobel which asks me what i did every day, how and feel ,  if I attained my set goals etc etc. Therefore I can’t hide from these resolutions.

Keeping my fingers crossed and looking forward to optimism.

“After all what are Resolutions? Irresoluteness of something that is resolute is what gives birth to resolutions :)”

Today is the beginning of my first day of resolution. Therefore its January 1st for me  🙂

Oh and btw Word of the day is : Felicitous

Happy 2010 to all of you and to me as well 🙂

Just a note of thanks!

Like many other writeups about LIFE ,  here is my 2 cents.

We experience it and live it. It gives you a lot , showers you with best of bests that is destined to be with you,  shelters you  and your dreams and throws opportunities at your footsteps. But THIS life is the ONLY life. I dont believe in next life,  though frankly telling you I do believe in parallel universe, courtesy of all sorts of real time ghost stories that I have either seen or heard or may have experienced couple of times.

As soon as we think that our life is our own and nothing bad will ever happen to us, life actually gives a hard slap on the face. The slap doesn’t mean that life is not being fair to you,  its a reminder that you to pick up your groove and set your it back in motion irrespective of all sorts of ups and downs. Keeping spirits high and morals uplifted is the only way to beat the adversities. I have done it and probably you must have had a chance to conquer it as well.

We all are blessed in one way or other. This is what I am trying to learn each and every passing moment of my life. Seeking what we lack is the way of life and not forgetting what we already have makes it all the more worth living and enjoyable. I had an epiphany few years ago and I guess I need another one as the previous one is seemingly fading out. Epiphany moment gave mean an insight to stretch my patience and to test it beyond the current limit at that time.I did that and trust me when I say besides initial few days of inner hue and cry it did transition into a miracle. For which I am always thankful to my innerself.


So life be there, shelter everyone,  shower your love, bless all with opportunities and don’t let any adversities to step in.

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