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Hospital: A hate and love scenario


Another trip to hospital was freaking Eva out. She was accompanying her uncle to the hospital as he was having some chest pains. He was her only family and the thought of losing him was downright atrocious. Earlier she never used to be this much worried about hospitals but since that dreadful night some four years back  she literally gets sick to her stomach on even if someone simply mention hospital.

That was one awful night. It was pitch dark, drizzling and the roads were slippery, though it was only 8o’clock in night but roads were already lifeless. Eva was trying to keep her eyes on road and was sipping coffee. Out of nowhere a big SUV came and hit her car head-on. Eva’s car got badly banged up and so was her head. Seatbelt saved her life but not the frequent hospitals visits that she had to make for almost 3 years for checkups. She had to stay in hospital for almost a month for surgery and observations. During those days she ended up hating that small room, those bright white walls and glaring lights and all that weird equipment around her.

She detested the smell, the weird smell of lemon and ammonia that was engulfing the waiting room. She was literally feeling dizzy simply by thinking about those days and frequent visit to hospitals. She was trying to control her emotions. She was thinking that once her Uncle comes out after his checkup, she will out of there in no time. She was tried to read the magazine which she bought with her.

A nurse came out and asked her to go to the Doctor’s cabin.

Doctor stood up and asked her to take a seat. She was actually on the edge of getting a heart attack herself when she heard that doctor wanted to meet her and was worried if her uncle is alright.

Doctor introduced himself: Hello I am Dr. Trapp. I just examined Mr. Krimper, don’t worry he is fine but we may keep him in hospital for a night or two for observation. He kept on discussing her Uncle’s well being. He observed that she was little anxious.  Are you ok?

Eva tried to control her impatience and said: Yea I am fine… just that hospitals scare me a little. Otherwise I am fine. Thanks for asking.

Dr Trapp offered her a glass of water, which literally slipped down from her hands and spilled everywhere. Eva was unable to hold onto her fears and tears anymore and started crying.

That’s alright don’t worry, tell me why are you crying, you need not to cry your uncle is perfectly fine.

Eva was unable to control any feeling or emotion and she was getting hysterical now. Through her tears he told everything to doctor. She was angry with her life, her hospital visits, and her medical expenses. She was angry, very angry with every aspect of her life and now she was scared that she may end up losing her only family. She was shattered from inside out and ended up showing her hatred towards hospitals.

Dr. Trapp tried to comfort her and said: “Eva I have been a doctor since last 20 years now and I have seen patients who had some of the worst and best days in their term in hospitals. But whenever someone gets discharged from hospital I personally feel an emotion of contentment. I feel that if someone survives the worst then less then worst days are nothing but a momentarily lapse in life’s pace.”

“You should not be depressed, you are angry that you had that accident but see the positive side you were out of the hospital in a month , you must feel lucky to be out there and living in this beautiful world. Regarding medical expenses and bills don’t worry you will win over those hurdles also. You have your Uncle with you who by the way is hale n hearty and will be by your side in no time. There are people who fight some of the worst days & diseases by themselves and alone.”

“Look at the bright side of life. You have your whole life ahead of you and please don’t lose your strength in these slightly dark times. Hospitals, doctors and nurses are here just to serve you and make you feel better but nothing can win over a disease fast enough then a positive attitude towards life in general.”

“Hating someone or something is easy, try loving that same thing and see how content you will be with your life.”

Eva listened to each and every single beautifully braided word of Dr. Trapp. She felt as if he induced a new life in her dark life. She wiped her tears & made up her mind to give her life another chance and gather all of her courage to fight back tough times.”

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