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Life as we know it


Well I don’t have a good beginning in mind therefore I am just going to pour my heart out. I was wondering how time flies. We all see bad and good phases in our life.  No one can escape that route. Those who are super rich and has lots of money, face bad phases just like some one who is very poor and other way around. But who defines a bad or good phase? It varies from person to person, something that looks good to one may look horrible to other.  Then how do you judge whats good and whats bad? (Honestly, I have no idea if you can make sense out of all the words I am writing but I need to jot it down before I lose it).

I was thinking what if we all only see good times in our lives… how will our life look then? Just imagine our existence: with ample of money,  no worries,  no job problems,  no crimes,  no diseases, never to lose any of your loved ones, always with a smile and oblivious to words such as depression, poor, sad,  etc, will the picture be as beautiful? Makes no sense right? I know,  but I was trying to visualize something like this and trust me as much as the picture looked beautiful it still felt incomplete.

We all learn from our mistakes and that helps us to grow,  to tackle problems head on and explore unknown. Some learn from their own mistakes and some learn from mistakes that others commit,  but we all are continuously learning this way or that way. Thats what defines us,  it helps in creating our own unique character and separates us from other human being right? Adversities bring people either closer or drifts them apart but we are always breaking and making new connections.  Life has it’s own set patterns for everyone. We all do what we are supposed to do.  Now you may be thinking that “she has lost it” :D. Well I might have who knows 🙂 . But at times random thoughts are the best thoughts.

In the end I will say,  “Even the prettiest picture that I envisioned was not that pretty. Life without any problems dint look that appealing”

Thoroughly confused:  A-)

Monsoon: too late or too soon?


It was drizzling since morning but by the time she was done with her lunch it started to rain heavily. She went outside to feel the air and light breeze. The moment she stepped out on the rain-soaked patio, she knew she will have a tough day. Monsoon always had that effect on her. There was a time when she simply used to get mesmerized by the pleasant weather, pitter patter of rain drops and the sweet heart breaking fragrance of the damp soil. Now she feels sad, she misses the love of her life and regrets that why dint she tell him about her feelings and why dint she ask his name?

This was the same hotel, same city where she met him 2 years back. They met at the Hotel disc. She was trying to order a Dirty Martini but bartender was way too busy to even give her a glance and the blaring music made it more arduous. Out of nowhere from crowd, he jumped in and literally ordered for her and gave the bar tender 20 bucks for a 10 dollar drink. She thanked him and they started chatting, she actually liked him. Somehow she was not feeling any inhibitions from him and the result was she was sharing almost every tiny little detail of her life, her thoughts, her family and friends .

It was 3 in night when they had to leave the place. Both of them were in no mood to go their respective rooms. They were drunk, after the Martini sessions and tequila shots. Booze was doing all the thinking & talking for them. Before they knew they were sneaking out on the stairway and in no time they were at the rooftop of the hotel. Rooftop had a garden and a beautifully lit gazebo which was reserved for special occasions. It was raining and it began to gain momentum and smacked them with all its might, piercing them through and through, from head to toe (they preferred rain over brightly lit gazebo)…………

He saw her by the bar trying to place an order. That beautiful gorgeous girl, 2 years ago, who caught her attention not because of the beauty she endured but the charisma that engulfed her. Dressed in plain black cowl neck dress with her hairs tied up in a neat ponytail and the only jewelry she was wearing was a red ruby ring in her right hand. Confidently standing in her high red and bronze heels and clutching her tiny bag in one hand she was trying to get a drink. She was oblivious to his gaze, but he was very much aware of her presence and the fragrance of her perfume was simply intoxicating.

Before he knew he was buying her the drink. She turned towards him and thanked him. He knew he was drawn to her. She was intelligent and smart. He was getting more and more attracted to her. A feeling of inexplicable longing came over him as a thrill ran down his spine. Talking to her was so easy, he was conveying whatever was in his heart that too without any hesitations. They had their drinks and then couple of shots. He dint even realize the time till he heard the DJ announcing that the bar is closed and everyone needs to leave. He dint want the night to end.  He was drunk, she was drunk but he was intoxicated by her beauty.

They ended up at the rooftop garden of the Hotel. He dint know how the door to the garden got unlocked, may be his luck was on his side. It was a rainy night. Though the stars were concealed by the pitch darkness, but he could easily see the twinkle in her eyes. Both of them were suddenly soundless, only thing they could hear was: whatever their hearts were saying. Both of them knew the night will be one of the most unforgettable nights of their lives and the moments will be cherished throughout their existence.

Since that morning 2 years back when they parted their ways he regretted not conveying his feelings to her. He was never able to forget her as she became a part of his heart, the girl with whom he shared the most beautiful moments of his life, the girl about whom he knew everything except for her name and contact. He tried to forget her but more he was trying to forget, more she was hovering over his thoughts and heart.

Finally he gave in to his feelings and decided to visit the same hotel on the same date when they met for the first and last time. It was his last night and tomorrow he will be leaving. He was unable to bear her absence from his life. To drown his sorrows he went down to the bar and ordered a drink. Just when he was about to pay a hand came from behind and offered 20 dollars for that 10 dollar drink.

There was no need to turn back and look who was buying him a drink, this was the fragrance he can never forget and the ruby ring which caught his attention.

He knew this is the beginning of a very beautiful life.

A-)

(re blogged)

A Random Act of Kindness!


This incident happened almost 6 years ago but it is still very much fresh in my memory bank.  It might not be a big thing but for me it is one of those unforgettable moments.

It happened when we were coming back from our France trip. We were waiting for a connecting flight. I was staring outside the glass doors of waiting lounge. People were running/walking towards their destinations.

I was deep in my thoughts when I saw a guy. I wasn’t staring but unknowingly I was following his each and every move.

I guess he saw me looking at him and I am sure he would have thought that I was staring (which I was but unconsciously), so he waved at me. I don’t remember what I was thinking. I was so much engrossed in the thought process that even though I was looking at him but I dint notice his wave.

Now you must be wondering how do I know he was waving if I dint notice? Thats because even though I dint notice but subconsciously my mind acknowledged that. Anyway, he waved again and this time I saw he was smiling. He was standing on one of those walking escalators at airports. As soon as I came back to my senses I automatically waved back (hesitantly).

He was about to pass me any moment now and just before that, he did these …..

  • His first gesture was asking me to smile (with his thumb and middle finger at both sides of his lips)….
  • His second gesture was he kissed his first 2 fingers …
  • His third gesture was after kissing his fingers he waved a Peace sign at me..
  • Now I was not only waving back but I was smiling too. 🙂

Whole thing took some 30-45 seconds but the incident got etched on my mind and heart (in detail). That is why I remember all the necessary details . I don’t remember how he looked like, how tall he was and what/how many bags he was carrying . But the couple of things that I remember  very clearly are his smile and his gestures  as they did leave an imprint.

Since that moment till date I have never met/seen anyone doing the same thing. But one thing that I learned was how to make some one smile once in a while.  Whenever I see anyone with a very serious expression on his/her face, I use my hand to make them smile, just like the way that guy did. (if the moment and circumstances allow)

Mostly people smile back but once in a blue moon they don’t but I feel good that at least I tried.

I am thankful to that  RANDOM STRANGER who showed me how to do A RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS.

A-)

No post today :(


My lovely blogging friends

I guess I wont be posting any thing for couple of days including today :(. Writing daily has become a hobby, I will say a self-inflicted hobby :).  Ah, but as long as I am sticking to it and hope to complete the mission, I will keep on working on it .

My reason for not writing is I came down with Flu (at least I think so, as symptoms are same as that of flu but my Doc said it is not and the flu sample came out negative) . Anyway, I will not bore you with my those details , so moving on.

Umm, cool this message is taking a shape of blog post, wow,  never knew it was that easy. EPIPHANY! 🙂

Honestly, If I don’t write one day, I get that guilt feeling of alienating my page and my blogging buddies, who have been super awesome for taking out time and leaving their words of wisdom at my page.

I am sorry in advance if you don’t see my visits on your page. But please stay connected. Keeping my fingers crossed that tomorrow as well I will end up writing something

A-( / A-) (don’t know yet)

PS: please ignore all typos and grammar . Thanks.

Feeling Silly right now – giggles :)


57 degrees in SD and we all think its freezing . Well that is how Californians love to live or shall I say San Diegans.  We see snow and we literally faint 😀

Even though my fingers are freezing as I write this blog but still I want to share a very lovely memory  that just popped in my head. Now if you are thinking that I will be sharing specifically that memory, then I am sorry to disappoint you.  Instead of sharing the incident which gave me such an exquisite memory, I will be sharing how that makes me feel.

It is something that happened almost a year ago and I have to say those 4-5 hours were the best hours of my life.  At that moment I felt that time shall stop right here and right now. I just wanted to absorb that insanely gorgeous feeling in that short duration of time.  I was actually scared to let it go, as I was desperately craving to bask in that very moment.  I guess thats how things work in real life, if you love something / someone beyond any limits then you simply want whole of your life to look like an exact replica of that very moment.

I still remember that day very clearly. The day started with a little disappointment – no wait , with a huge disappointment but by the time it ended it was THE BEST DAY of my life till date.  Seriously, while writing this post I am time traveling. I am not in 2011 but in 2010 (oo looks like I just made my very own time machine :D). All the events of that day are still afresh in my mind,  I can literally recall how each and every second of those moments was spent.

I have to admit that if a day comes when I am a mess, out of any XYZ reason , I simply close my eyes and think about that time.  All my tensions and worries simply fade away in the sheer bright light of that evening. It works like an elixir of life for me. If some one will ask me to reveal my most unforgettable day / incident of my life, i now know which memory cell to scratch.

That incident has transitioned into a memory and a dream  but it still gives me exactly the same butterflies and goosebumps. While writing this post, I have a silly smile on my face .. giggles. Ah! Hopefully someday,  another memory and another moment can be as precious and treasure worthy.

I so badly want to share that day with you all,  but I know I cant (even if I am dying to ) but still can’t 😀

Anyway, I really hope you all have that one moment ,  that one day in your life  which takes you to a whole new world.

A-)

Wanna see my dream?


I get at least 4-5 dreams in one night. Thankfully most of them are either neutral or nice leaving aside 10 -15% of nightmares. When I get up in morning, I always end up remembering at least 1 of all those dreams. Many a times I think I should start writing about them. I might actually ..

There are a couple of dreams that I have been seeing since last 9-10 years now and I absolutely have no clue why or what does it symbolize.

This post is about one of those dreams.  Check out the below sketches, I tried to make them as close to my dream as possible. Hopefully you can visualize it the way I see it.

1)  Whenever I see that dream, first thing that comes in picture is an angled view of a staircase : (try to imagine these angles lines as solid wall)

2)  Then I see myself climbing that huge staircase.  Now I have no idea where these stairs are taking me or whats at the end of it. As I start to climb, couple of doors towards the left of staircase, starts to appear.

3) Once I am all the way up there I start walking toward left not right (I absolutely have no idea why). Trust me when I say this, even though I know it’s all a dream, but still I kind of force myself to go right rather than left but I guess it doesn’t work that way. Towards right there is a long and narrow hallway and there is no end to it. There are lots and lots of doors on both ride and left side of the hallway.

4) Then I feel that I start to walk towards the darkness at the end of the hallway,  but before I could reach anywhere I turn left and I open a door.

 

5) Whats behind that door I have no idea as the dream stops there. That is why I could not draw anything for that part.  I don’t remember why or when did i start having this dream , but I do remember initially I used to get scared whenever the dream popped up in my sleep but not anymore.  I think my sleep and mind,  both are tuned to it now. It doesn’t scare me anymore.

Because of all of my dreams I bought a Dream encyclopedia just so that I can infer something from it.

So this was one of those 2 dreams that I have seen zillion of times. I can’t sketch my second dream cause I can only feel it. I will share that dream in another blog post. Meanwhile, do you have any recurring dream? Please share if you can and if you want to .

A-)

Met my sweetest friend today!


(This post will be tiny but that means quick to read 🙂 )

Today was super fun,  I can’t believe it’s almost over. Yesterday night around 10 I got an SMS from one of my friends.  Alex and I studied Marketing and Advertising at UCSD. Last year she moved from SD and was visiting family this weekend. After exchanging couple messages on Facebook we decided to meet today. I have to say that was the quickest plan we ever made and that too just on messages: . 🙂

I met her for lunch and OMG I totally have to admit that it was AWESOME.  Since the moment we met, we started talking and we were still talking when she had to leave. LOL I guess we hardly left any topic during our chitchat.

I told her that I might be visiting India soon and extended the invitation to her. I am super excited that she is thinking about it. If everything works out well then she might join me there and I have to say I am so looking forward to it. It will turn out to be a great trip  even if she will come there for a week.  I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Anyway, that is it. Sweet and tiny,  right?

A-)

 

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